just-lynda

Its almost the end of February ,The weather is freezing ,Life is boring well at least just now it is .We have been having work done to the outside of the house and finally the scaffold has been removed .The outside looks lovely the garden is destroyed and inside needs a major update .All massive and all stressing me out .Cant wait for spring so i can get it all sorted.I love my garden its a passion of mine and at the moment it feels so much like a burden.It needs ,The lawn replacing,hedges trimmed ,bulbs dug up and replanted .The decking relaid and all the sheds and furniture will need scrubbed and restained, One one hand it sounds a daunting job way to big for me and then on the other i know the feeling of pride and satisfaction of doing the work for myself So im busy searching for ideas for when i finally get to start.

Its been a long winter and it will soon be the start of our holiday season. As a family we have a static caravan on a small family park in Northumberland and Next weekend it the start of the season and I CANT WAIT !!!!!! .Im looking forwrd to getting back down there and for some complete relaxtion (after we have sorted it all out ). Catching up with old friends, making some new ones and creating another year of fantastic memories.

Here is a quick look at my pride and joy Oh and the cat lol .I love this as its so light and airy and very very modern (unlike me ) lol .The park we choose is called Cresswell Towers and is part of Park resorts ,So it has all the entertainment for kids and adults and is set in a beautiful woodland setting .Two minutes out the park and its the beach miles and miles of sand and sea ,i can almost feel the breee and smaell the sea air .

Well as i look out the window at the grey sky ,its time to get back to reality and housework,cooking and a mountain of ironing that will take me until bedtime to complete.Hope you enjoyed my post today and seeing my little slice of heaven.

A year to be exact and as usual i got bored.I decided that 2013 was going to be my year and that massive changes were going to be happening.So here is a list of what i want to change.

1 I want to finally control my stress levels 

2 I want to rebuild my confidence

3 I want to regain control of my finances

4 I want to restart my social life 

There are many more i could say but these are my main problrms 

I thought about  doing one at a time but needed fast results so im trying to do them all at once .First step was to book an assesment at a local health centre to gain access to a stress management course and im now on the waiting list.In the meantime ive started POWER WALKING ,I put on my music and off i go and i LOVE IT ,i can feel the stresses leaving my body and my mind clears after just a few  miles and i feel free.I have made some real discoveries about myself while walking like I am a perfectionist and therefore try to do everything myself which in turn stresses me out and that im not suffering from depression but Boredom as i only feel down when i am stuck at home with nothing exciting to do .

To build my confidence i am facing my fears Eeeek sounds scary but i am starting small with things like actually speaking to people face to face instead of by email or text,I got so out of the habit that i think i forgot how to enjoy real human contact.Next is to join a group or class and thirdly to take up some kind of volenteering program.I will keep you updated as and when i achieve these.

My finances have taken a massive hit .As a self employed woman its all to easy to let things slide and thats what i did.It started with a few days off at Christmas and then one of the kids got ill ,then the other on got ill and before i knew it i hadnt worked properly for 5 weeks and money was becomimg tight ,So i feel like im starting my business all over again as i try and rebuild relatioships and confidence with my customers. Its a slow process but i KNOW i will win in the end.

The social life bit is a little harder ,what with being short on money and being low on confidence but i will do it soon.I am proud of what i have achieved so far and feel like i am changing for the better but i know there is a long way to go. For now im just looking forward to spring when i know things will be brighter .

So until next time im signing off 

Its me Just Lynda 

The build up to christmas was as usual total MADNESS.I had planned a calm relaxed affair with just my family.I got my shopping done early and all the gifts bought and wrapped in plenty of time and thought i was good to go.However a simple trip to the shops on christmas eve to pick up the last min stocking fillers turned into a stressfull mad  free for all .

For some mad undetermind reason panic began to descend and i started panic buying everything i could think of i got caught up in all the madness around me .I came home stressed and feeling ill with bags of completely useless crap that i had no need for.After a few glasses of wine my mind began to calm down and i could see the funny side of the whole day.Now i would love to see the faces of everyone who opens their gifts of weird and wonderful extras ,(the result of the insanity) .LOL .

I have decided next year that i won't go shopping on christmas eve and i will have any little extras delivered to me instead.I choose to sit indoors with a glass or two of something sparkily and a large box of chocolates and leave the maddness to those who choose it.

Now i await the end of year to arrive and the new one to begin .Im going to bed .No drink ,No hangovers and No kissing random people with the usual happy new year chants.I want to wake up in 2012 refreshed and rested and plan a nice quiet family meal.Then its down with the tree and deccys and on with the new year and the new possibilities it will bring .

GOODBYE 2011 AND HELLO 2012 .

It will be a new and exciting chapter of my life and i for one can't wait to get it started.

HAPPY NEW YEAR WHEN IT COMES.

I will see you on the other side